Poor Poor Scarlett! Tuesday, Jan 26 2010 

So… ok ok I’ve been putting this off for a while. Scarlett has had her check engine light on for a long long time. I haven’t exactly had the means to pay…. ok I”m lying it wasn’t a high priority for me. Scarlett ran ok, she just never hit 4th gear! My registration is up in February and I needed to get Scarlett smogged for the first time. That means I need to fix her so I can then get her smogged and then make my registration payment… easy right??

Dr. Dave is a mechanic and so I thought I was going to be smooth sailing. But Dr. Dave can’t work on Mazdas. Crap! I asked him to recommend me to someone trustworthy. I mean seriously, I’m a chick. I walk into a mechanic place and have the word ‘sucker’ across my forehead! I know NOTHING about cars and I don’t really understand too much about maintenance other than put gas in and change the oil. Dr. Dave sent my to his friend Russ at Auto Performance Lab. Wow, does Russ know his stuff. I asked him to look at the back breaks and see if they were in need of fixing because I hear noises back there when I break. And sure enough they do need replacing. And then the check engine light is on because of some dohickie that makes the sensor thingy transition over for my car and basically making it possible for Scarlett to reach 4th gear! I’m listening to Russ tell me about the cost and labor and diagnostics and hearing the cash register ring up. I was super worried that this would drain my bank account when there’s not much int here to begin with! But when it’s all said and done?? I’m getting outta there for under $400! Whew!!!

If you’re in Fresno I highly recommend going to Russ and letting him work on your car. He’s the MAN! Oh and if you have a GM go to Dr. Dave cause he rocks also!

A big Thank you to Marcel for picking me up at the shop, I was really honestly too lazy to walk from McKinley & Clark to Olive & Broadway.

Ok… so there… I blogged again!


Tonight it’s ON!!! Tuesday, Jun 2 2009 

Tonight around 8 or 9, I can’t be too sure or remembr exactly, but the Discovery Channel has Man vs. Wild with special guest, Will Ferrell. It’s to promote his movie Land of the Lost (which doesn’t look too interesting) and shouild make for some humorous clips with Bear Grylls.

By the Way… Tuesday, Apr 7 2009 

This is me:rogueparty

Photo taken by Kirt Fitzpatrick at the Rogue Festival closing bash. 🙂

Yeah… can you tell I don’t have anything really to write about?? LOL…


Edit: Silly me… I almost forgot! It’s OPENING DAY!!!!!!! GO GIANTS!!!

Long live TIMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Da Count – Communication Friday, Jun 13 2008 

I love communication. Communication is such a key aspect in my life, in my relationships, at my job, etc. I think it’s important to establish an open line with those you care the most about, whether it be through a look, a smile or a special way of talking.

This week I have felt absolutely aggravated in that I haven’t felt that I’ve effectively communicated what I am feeling and what is bothering me. There is so much that I am dealing with and when I have tried to talk about it, I’m told to look at the bigger picture, to put myself in the other person’s shoes, to buck up and stop stressin over the little shit… and sure, that’s a well and valid… but what I need the most when I’m in this kind of place is a hug and cuddle time and someone to just tell me it’s going to be ok. Or don’t say anything at all…. just be there and hug me until I can overcome the demons and put them away.

I’m not so good and just brushing it off and letting go. I hate to see my friends hurt. I want to help solve problems. And yes, I know I need to help myself and solve my problems… but where is the line between a healthy relationship with yourself and being self-centered… I don’t get it…

Assumptions are a bitch and I’ve worked really hard to not jump to conclusions. I’m notorious for starting at point A but already planning point H. Sometimes it’s helpful but mostly it’s a harmful aspect to my daily routine and I’ve tried to lessen it in my life. I think I’m doing better (that’s what my mom said… no Chris… seriously!).

I know this is a round about Da Count, but I am thankful for those friends in my life that I can really talk to. Katie, Cadie, Halo, my mom, Michelle, Rob, Jay… there’s more but it’s the fact that I have them in my life and they are willing to actively listen to me and my struggles and give me wonderful amazing feedback… I am thankful for them and their willingness to put up with my psychoses. Thank you.

Oh… and one of my major stresses and major joys…. check out my latest posts at Fresnocentric.

EDIT: yeah… ok something that we’ve (the actors out at the park) been mulling over… there’s a peacock… now the female is a peahen? So the babies would be peachicks? And why is it called a peacock, why not a pearooster…

Fun deliously wonderings from sleep deprived actors… 

HNT Tiki Style Thursday, May 22 2008 

So still in the mind set of having 3 be the magic number…. yea it is…. the magic number….

Oh, sorry I was distracted! 😉 Here’s my HNT offering…

Pretty tiki-tastic, don’t you think??? M & J are the inspirations behind this one… last night was a lot of fun, thank you for the BBQ! 🙂

Go say hi to Os and see what this HNT thang is all about!

If Lime can do it, so can I! ;) Tuesday, Apr 15 2008 

I decided I didn’t have a lot of mental power today as I’m up to my elbows in work… I’m procrastinating and blogging and I stole this from Lime!

and Katie-Did… I fully expect you to steal this too!

Layer One: On the Outside
Name: Ms. Solitaire Blackberry & Feste the Fool
Birthday: January, and on the cusp
Current Location: at work, in front of my computer, waiting for lunch time
Eye Color: hazel
Hair Color: brown for now…
Righty or Lefty: yes
Zodiac Sign: cap & Aquarius… I’m strange like that!

Layer Two: Just Below the Surface
Your Weakness: Biting off more than I can chew 
Goal: To do the best I can at anything I set my mind to.
Your Fears: Failure

Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: Wow, what a night!
Your bedtime: Late and later…
Your most missed memory: Dad’s bedtime stories…

Layer Four: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Rockstar Punch
McDonald’s or Burger King: McD’s… I’m addicted to the fries!
Single or Group dates: Single is nice but the fun is in a group!
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea: LIPTON!
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate

Cappuccino or Coffee: White Mocha 🙂

Layer Five: Do You?
Smoke: sometimes
Have a crush: yuppers
Think you’ve been in love: sure
Want to get married: eventually
Believe in yourself: a little too much sometimes 😉
Think you’re a health freak: not at all… ask Lecram he’s been on me to eat better for months now!

Layer Six: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: Hahahahaha….
Gone to the mall: Cathy Jean’s is my weakness!!! Damn beautiful shoes!
Eaten Sushi: Lunches with Jay are awesome!
Gone skating: No, but I’m stepped onto my friend’s longboard… Jayne stop it! 😉
Dyed your hair: Not yet… but it’s pending

Layer Seven: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: Teeheehee
Gotten beaten up: emotionally, mentally… sure
Changed who you were to fit in: I don’t change to fit anywhere… Popeye said it best: “I yam what I yam” 😉

Layer Eight: Getting Old
Age you’re hoping to be married: before death
Plastic Surgery or Wrap: Either or…
Buried or Cremated: Cremated

Layer Nine: Perfect Mate
Best Eye Color: Blue!
Best Hair Color: Dark blonde or brown!
Short or Long Hair: Either or… I’ve been known to swoon over a shaved head too…

Layer Ten: What were you doing…
1 HOUR AGO: Working
1 WEEK AGO: Hacking up a lung and trying to work
1 MONTH AGO: working
1 YEAR AGO: working

Layer Eleven: Finish the Sentence
I LOVE: him
I HATE: hate
I HIDE: my insecurities
I MISS: Chooch
I NEED: a nap

Yay now I’m going back to work and maybe I’ll get some research done on Feste! 

I promise I’ll be a good girl!!! Monday, Apr 14 2008 

If you know me at all you know that I have 2 speeds, (1) 1,000 mph at all times giving 110% and (2) 0 mph and sick as a dog! I have Rogue Year Round I am helping to plan/coordinate, a performance in San Francisco at the SF Fringe Festival in September and this new role as Feste in Twelfth Night for the Woodward Shakespeare Festival. Well, yes this is a full plate and there is little time to waste. I have memorizing to do, meetings to go to, a set to help build and coordinating to do. I promise I will do my best to stay with it and not over do it!

Ha… yeah I know this sounds impossible for even me to do… but I offer this example. I am on HEAVY antibiotics right now and I am not going out for my usual weekend of partying. I don’t go out Friday and Saturday nights and get pissed out of my head or anything like that, but I’m known to sit and talk over drinks for hours on end with friends. 🙂 This is not a bad thing as long as there is moderation. With the meds I am on I have been abstaining from my usual behavior and to be completely honest I’ve really enjoyed waking up without the haze. Not only am I feeling better, but Saturday I woke up early and got a lot of work done. So, yeah, maybe I’ll be changing my habits and behaviors around a bit to accomodate my busy schedule.   

Sunday I went to the Bard’s Birthday Bash, but you’ll have to go to fresnocentric to read up on my fun happenings there!

Happy Monday, if that’s possible, and have a wonderful week!!!

Oh and also: for those of you that know me, maybe you’ll remember it’s a very special day for me.

You’re 7 years old today. I can’t believe the day is already here, have that many years truly gone past? I remember today and what happened. I remember how it was to see you for the first time. You are my savior, my hero and the greatest teacher I’ll ever know. I love you Chooch! Happy Birthday!

Please excuse Ms. Solitaire, she’s been sick… Wednesday, Apr 2 2008 

PhotobucketAnd I haven’t been able to get to posting or commenting. I came back to work yesterday with a mountain of chaos on my desk and even more chaos in the ‘To Be Filed’ bin. I’ve finally caught up and I’m smooth sailing, for now at least. I’m the type of person where I get distracted easily and if I don’t want to do something I look for a distraction. A work computer with no blocked websites is dangerous to a person like me… but I was good and kept myself on task yesterday. Every so often I like to go through spurts of efficiency to remind my employers why they hired me and why I’m still working here.  🙂

Silly Wednesday Stuff:


Ah yes, you gotta love Cyanide & Happiness or at least appreciate the humor… it tickles my funny bone, which has been known to be weird and sadistic.

Life Lessons:

Moulin Rouge I realized that the last three years I’ve been trying to control everything in my life. It’s like herding cats on ice… impossible. I’ve come to the conclusion that I am not the ruler of the universe and it’s not my way or the highway. And the amazing thing? I’ve had a few people that have stuck by my side throughout. It’s sad what low self-esteem will do, it’ll make you believe that you don’t deserve the world, or to be happy; it’ll make you comfortable with pain, maybe it’s the pain that reminds you that you are alive and still going through the motions, and able to handle loss in unusual ways. Depression is an ugly beast that I’ve struggled with for a long time now, but it’s been those people around me that have truly helped me come through the darkness and see that I can be a light.

A little over three years ago I fell in love. Head over heels in love. He was a blogger and my ‘SS’ (for those of you that remember my old blog), and I thought he was my savior. And then I got scared, I ran away and hid. But I never forgot about him and what I felt for him. I tried, I dated and got into emotionally tempestuous relationships because I thought I could be happy. I thought I could control my emotions, I thought I could control fate. I was scared to let go and just let life happen. I was scared that I’d miss something, or that my path would pass me up because I wasn’t forcing my way onto it. I was a control freak because it masked my fear. I’ve realized now that my fear was what was keeping me from being truly happy. My fear was keeping me guarded from the man that I truly adore. My fear does not rule me any longer, I’ve learned to let go and I am on a new path. One where I’m giggling like a school girl and I feel settled, balanced… and he’s not even in California yet! Haha! I’ll talk about him more, but for now I’ll just say that ‘the greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love, and be loved in return’.