Ham Radio??? Wednesday, Jan 27 2010 

I’m studying for the Technician class of Ham Radio Licenses. It’s Scientific. I’m learning about how electricity behaves. It’s confusing. Possibly one of the hardest pieces of material I’ve had to read. It’s hard. But I’m going to get my license and understand what to do with it damn it!

The ARRL (Amateur Radio Relay League) puts out a handbook (not the one pictured to the left) that allows you to study for the license test and hopefully pass it with flying colors. The book is extremely helpful and has many references to their website. It’s nice to have multiple tutors and study guides at your convience.

I find that if I read the book with Halo, he is getting his Advanced Technician (level 3) license, he’s able to help me understand what I’m reading. Except we’re so busy right now it’s hard to have that sit down time at all. Plus it’s hard so I’m reluctant to avidly read it. What needs to happen is a bearing down and just plowing through the materials. I’ve found that I want to understand all the concepts I’m reading and they will be explained later and I’m not wanting to move forward thus stagnating myself in my learning process. It’s frustrating to not easily grasp a concept. Talk about Shakespeare or Donne or English sub textual communication and I could talk for hours. Talk about the Rogue and I could talk for days. Talk about Ham Radios and I’m lost after 5 minutes.

::sigh::

Just buck up and get through it, right?? Sure. There’s a lot of information to cover before the February 20th test. And with the Super Bowl and Mardi Gras coming up…. it’s going to take dedication and resolve to get through it.

Then there’s also the job hunt. The Iron Bird Cafe’s opening date is now pushed back to March 1st. I’ve littered the main parts of Fresno with my resume and applications and there’s nothing biting. I will be looking for a way to get student loans and maybe just hit up the school thing again. I need to talk to a counselor.

I feel like a slacker, a failure. It’s hard and maybe I’m not doing enough. This effects not only me, but those around me that expect me to be successful. Again…. it just takes bearing down and going for it. I guess I’ve been lazy long enough. It’s time to actually get serious and make something happen.

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Out of Retirement? Thursday, Jan 21 2010 

I haven’t been on here in quite some time. Causes?? Life. Busy. Stress. And the whole I’m still not at a job where I sit in front of a computer for multiple hours a day. A reason for blogging today?? The horrendous experience at the DMV.

Ok so this started on the 19th. I had to renew my license before the 20th. I went to the DMV at 1:00 pm. Waited 2.5 hours to see someone only to find out that our wonderful court system did not process a payment to a ticket I made back in November. While sitting at the DMV I call the court and talk to someone about the situation. They show I have $0 balance and need to put it through their computer system to release the hold on my license. This takes me to 5pm on the 19th. I’m screwed. I have to go back the morning of the 20th. So I get up and am there at 8:30 am. I think I’m late snce they open at 8 am right??? NOPE! They don’t open until 9 am. So I’m standing in line for 30 minutes waiting for the doors to open. Mind you we’ve been having a storm of epic porportions and I’m standing in the rain. Oh and I also have to take a lovely id pic too…. argh! Finally, the doors open and I get my number. The clerk I talked to at the court system actually called me back (totally above and beyond if you ask me!) to apologize and there were computer glitches and such but don’t worry it’s all fixed. Cool I thought. So I’m waiting to see someone at the DMV and it takes about an hour. I see the same clerk that helped me on the 19th. Coolness. I take my written, pass. Take the pic, not too shabby. And I’m outta there.

I promptly get ready for my lunch date with the Dad and as I’m headed out a mishap of embarrassing proportions occurs. I will not delve into details, it was bad I’m leaving it at that. I’m now running late for my lunch and as I get on the (still raining) wet highway I merge into the fast lane to pick up some time and get pulled over by the UC I merged in front of. He says how I’m driving too fast in the rain and regardless of my proper blinker usage he had to “slam” on his brakes. Yeah Yeah. I apologize and tell him I though there was room. I’m not in hysterics, I don’t use an excuse, but I hand him my license that’s expiring. D’Oh! Ok so technically it’s still legal. So cool. I’m preparing to hand him my paper license renewal proof and he comes back and tells me he’s going to let me go. AWESOME! I make it to lunch on time and my lesson is learned.

Work…. well work yesterday was fun. I had a good time. And I loved all the people that came out and hung out. It was very nice to be around friends after a hectic day.

Oh yeah… if I forgot to tell you, yesterday was my Birthday.

In other news:

The Rogue is coming along. There has been many many snafu’s but we’re handling everything one at a time. It should be good and we’ll get everything all set for the beginning in March. Did you see the Muse?

Yeah, I like her. She’s going to look amazing on the T-Shirt. Cool!

Ok, so no promises on a regular posting or anything. Or maybe I’ll come back and be good about it…. who knows.

Hearing the Wind Tuesday, Apr 14 2009 

a1bellow outside of my office (we’re supposed to have wind gusts up to 45 mph) and I’m cold inside. Drinking my tea and turning up the heater isn’t seeming to work. It’s the dreaded spring cold that always seems to come up, and I think it’s creeping up on me. I hate colds and I just want to go back to bed.

Taxes are due tomorrow and it has me thoroughly depressed and acting bitchy. I’m sorry now. It’s going to be ok, but it’s another financial stress on me and it really sucks because I was just beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Today is April 14th. It’s a special day to me. If you know me you know why and that’s all I’m going to say about that.

Last night Halo and I tried a Baked Chicken Parmesan recipe that we tweaked to make better. Using virgin olive oil, fresh garlic, garlic powder and Italian dressing to dip the pounded flat chicken breasts in; then into a bread crumb seasoned with Italian seasoning, garlic, Parmesan cheese and pepper. We baked it for 30 minutes, taking it out at 15 minutes to flip the breasts and then again at 10 minutes to add a jar of roasted garlic tomato sauce and mozzarella cheese. We made garlic mashed potatoes and garlic cheese bread to go along with it. it turned out amazing! The chicken was really moist and the roasted garlic tomato sauce went extremely well with Halo’s mashed potatoes. Another fabulous recipe and a good home cooked meal.

Ok… going back to work now and trying to get everything done. 🙂

Da Count: Eh… Friday, Apr 10 2009 

Ok ok I know I can find something to be thankful about.

(1) Easter, this is cool. I’m super stoked about it cause I’ll be camping and not having to go through uncomfortable and sometimes tense situations with the fight over going to church or not with the fam.

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(2) It’s almost someone’s birthday and I am so very happy about it, I hope #8 will be a great year for him.

(3) So salve my bruised, beaten, sorry excuse for a money making machine ass after getting my taxes done yesterday (I owe how much?!? in 4 figures?!? Where the eff am I going to get that kind of money?!?) We are going camping!  HA Uncle Sam, you and your tax raping machine cannot keep me down! And eff you for telling me that I was going to get a break this year because I’m a single white female that has no financial means to save ANYTHING! Eff You!

(4) That last rant felt incredibly good. So there, I am counting the fact that I have a blog and I can rant and I can go camping and I am celebrating Easter my way! Ha!

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Oh yeah and I’m going to Da Count This Guy for showin me some blogger love! Thanks Dude… I think you rock too!

Happy New Year… Here’s My Bill Thursday, Jan 8 2009 

running-emptyDon’t you just love unexpected bills?? especially when you’re already feeling the pinch? Ugh!

I swear if I could fit in a third job I would… but with the economy as it is and with my hellish schedule I’d not only have NO life, I’d get NO sleep in the mean time! ::sigh::

You can only pay off those bills you have money for and with this latest surprise all my extra expenses will be going to this important one. It sucks and I should have known about it and taken care of it a long time ago but it became an out of sight out of mind thing.

So… no more eating out or book/clothes/Target splurges. I have to be good and take care of this and get myself out of debt so I can go back to school and get into debt again. Yay!

:-/

ARGH!

Such is life and the fun trials of adulthood. Responsibility is necessary and when I grow up I’m going to learn how to budget myself and actually save something.

Thanksgiving Thursday, Nov 20 2008 

dacount1Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday because it’s the forgotten holiday. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, me favorite memory of Thanksgiving in my family was years ago when my mom put up construction paper on one whole wall in the kitchen. Before dinner it was our job to write or draw what we’re thankful for every day. It was awesome to sit around the dinner table and talk about what we’re thankful for. So, here’s my list this year:

Halo: I am so thankful for this man. He’s my calm, my voice of reason, my zero, the beginning. He’s helped me in so many ways I can’t begin to count. I love hanging out and listening to music, watching movies and cuddling on the couch, hanging out with friends, going to the mountains, learning how to shoot… so many experiences to talk about that I absolutely treasure. Halo, it’s you and me honey and I love you!

Mommy: How awesome is it that my best friend is my mom? She rocks my socks! She’s my sounding board, my bitching post… LOL…. she endures my tirades after I get off work everyday from being upset about work or something else that’s completely crazy. She lets me be me and is there for me unconditionally! Mommy! I can’t wait to see you tomorrow!!! Yay!

Brothers and Sisters: So many to talk about but all extremely vital in my life. Well… there are a few that I don’t talkto at all and I think it’s best left that way, but Dave, Pete, Anna, Teri & Tanya you all are my goober nuts and I love what our relationship has grown into! I love that we get along so well and even though there’s a lot of distance between us we can come together like it was only yesterday we saw one another! (Ewan and Lucas too! My little nephews, I love you!)

Friends! Wow… I have some of the bestest friends EVER!!!!

Michelle… you are my sister that I never knew I had! I love you dearly and I couldn’t be more proud of you!

Cadie, thank you for always having something fun to talk about and thank you for making me laugh! I love you homey!

The Starline crew… good drinks, good times… lots o laughs! I love it!

The Fright Night crew… geez what would life be like without you? Hahahaha!! It’s all about the Haunt!

The ROGUE buddies! Ah yeah, we’re going to blow it up in 2009!!!

APJ you are my partner in crime! I can’t wait to kick ass with you! Lime, I love you honey and the connection we just discovered is truly a blessing to me!  

To everyone I didn’t mention I love you too…. to those that have come and gone out of my life, I am thankful for the times we had together and the love that was shared!

I hope you and yours have a wonderful Turkey Day and please remember to always say Thank You. It’ll make someone smile!

Just when you thought you were set… Wednesday, Sep 24 2008 

…a wind blows through and changes the current. Change is a good thing, it helps us grow. But change is scary, at least to me. I’ve never handled change well, but I’m working on it and trying to be more go-with-the-flow and not let the little things get to me.

Change is coming, it’s inevitable. Growth is coming, and that’s a good thing. I’m not too sure if I’ve grown enough for this change, but I’ll continue to take a step forward hoping that it’s in the right direction. This change is bigger than me and is something I believe in. So it’s good.

I know I’m being cryptic, but until I get some particulars nailed down I’m not going to specify anything… and even them I might not divulge.

Happy Wednesday!

Monday and I’m at peace… Monday, Sep 15 2008 

…the weekend was great! Working, getting some important details solidified for the Fresno/Clovis Haunted House, hanging out with Halo and really just getting back into the groove of always having something piling on my plate but not freaking out about it.

Lately I had been feeling unbalanced and really at a loss… I felt overwhelmed and really was not able to handle stress. But last weekend and some good down time really made a difference in mind set. Halo always says, “change your environment” and really it was all about that. No, I didn’t go anywhere but I looked at my environment with different eyes and it really made all the difference… i did change my environment.

I’m feeling really good about the prospects of school right now. Talking with a friend last night I realized that I truly want to be in PR. I want to be established in a career and I want to allow my education to benefit others. The hardest thing about all of this will be to allow myself, my image, the “I” and “me” to be unseen. It’s not about me… and that’s a hard lesson for me to learn. (Again, understanding this is my blog and I’m allowed to be self-centered on my own blog). I think I’m ready to put away the spotlight though. I remember as a Freshman in high school our drama department’s logo was “Live Life in the Spotlight.” I guess I never really stepped out of it since. With the break I’m taking from theater and my return to school, it’s time to take the next step into my adult life and really buckle down and focus on the future. The difference this time around? It’s actually bright. I actually am excited about finishing my degree. I’m tired of the unrest I feel for not having finished college. I’ve got my eye on an internship that would really be a great opportunity. I really want to grow and produce the best work possible and I’m just now starting on that path. it’s an exciting time and I can’t wait to be in the mix and get back there!

So here’s to the future and the peace that has allowed me to be ready to step forward.

Da Count – Time Friday, Aug 29 2008 

Time wounds… all heals.

I’m counting time this week because I have it and in time all will right itself and the path I’m supposed to be on will be clear. Then, in time, I’ll look back to this moment in my life and laugh about the fretting I did. Perspective and balance are achieved through time and new experiences will change and affect… this is all good and a part of life.

I’m counting time because right now I don’t feel thankful for anything and I thought if I forced myself to count something then I’d change my head space and feel better. And ya know, I think it’s working. 🙂

Happy Friday!

Da Count – A Change of Pace Friday, Aug 8 2008 

I’ve been absent as of late and that’s partially because I’ve been busy at work and also partially because of my new obsession. I read over at the Beehive that they were making this book into a film…usually a risky move, but this series has caused a fervor in tween readers similar to the Harry Potter Series. I’ve never read the Harry Potter books, but that doesn’t mean I won’t. This series (I’m only on Book 2) is about Edward, a perpetually 17 year old Vampire, and Bella, an outsider high school-er, all located in the Olympic Peninsula in Washington. I dig this series!

So with the additional work (I’m now essentially working for two companies out of one office), which limits my computer fun time, and this fascinating book series… blogging and such have kinda suffered. But I’ll be back here and there for little bits and pieces… well at least until the books are done. Haha!

My Da Count also notes a change of pace. (1) being more work at the office so I’m rarely dull, (2) in finding a book series that I enjoy and (3) the unspoken change of pace… my relationship with Halo.

Camping was amazing and it was our first camping trip together and also one that could have made or broken our relationship. We talked a lot and really got back on the same page, a page I haven’t felt like we’ve been on for a while now. And the bliss and contentment is blatant. I am so at peace with where he and I are right now, and it’s really nice. 🙂

Happy Friday!

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