Insane Monday… Monday, Jun 30 2008 

…so there was a mountain of paperwork on my desk when I got to work today. Oy! I’ve dolled it out and need to file the remaining paperwork and I have to do some Tuesday tasks since we aren’t working Friday. 2 days worth of work in 1! Woot!

And now on to the next few ventures… check out these Groups and Events! 🙂


Check out Fright Night and Join the Scream Team!

Check out the Woodward Shakespeare Festival’s production of Twelfth Night!

Check out Tale End at the SF Fringe in September!


Oh yeah… Marcel put together this video for us too! Come see the show!


 Edit: Donald Munro reviewed 12th Night over at the BeeHive… here’s what he had to say


Da Count – Opening Night Friday, Jun 27 2008 

Was there any question in your mind what I’d Count this week?!? 😉

Last night was opening night and I was getting nervous around 3 in the afternoon. My father and his wife were in the audience, this is their first opening night they have come to. My mommy was in the audience along with my younger brother and my boyfriend. It was a heavy on the support side and I didn’t want to let them down. This play I have been working on has consumed me. I have worked really hard, sometimes chosing to the play and what I needed to do over spending time with them. And they really enjoyed the show last night.

Our audience had 200+ people, which I was more than happy about due to the Bulldogs’ parade for the NCAA Championship win being the SAME time as our show. Our mics weren’t up to par, mine had to be switched out 3 times during the show back stage, but the show must go on! The set was still being painted when i arrived, and there’s still things to get done, but it was pretty much show worthy. The lines were memorized, but in live theater and in the moment you never truly know what’s going to come out of your mouth… and I was an offender of missing a line and/or messing it up. With SO MUCH adversity we’ve come through, we actually got through opening night…

and it wasn’t half bad if I say so myself. 🙂

Now I have no idea what the reviewer will think, but you know… you believe your good press, you HAVE to believe the bad… and opinion is just that and I am appreciative of the reviewer coming out and watching the show.

Last night I had a blast. It was a fun performance and an overall great night! We close July 26th… so there are many more performances left… but nothing will be like opening night!

Click on the flashy sign to see what Da Count is all about! 🙂   

HNT – The Bruise Wednesday, Jun 25 2008 

Ok… now Lecram took a pic of me before the Burlesque show that I was going to use… but with the last post I decided to show you my stage wounds. 🙂

 Now this one only looks tiny but it’s a painful sucker… and I think it’s yet to completely surface as I only got this one last night. This I call Left Butt Cheek versus the Mic Pack.

These actually took me a while to realize what they were from… but I finally figured it out and I call these I.v. and the Bench.

 Oh yeah, this beauty showed up on Saturday… I’m not too sure the origin but I entitled it, It Came From the Rotary.

And finally… one that I am most proud of…

Toe versus staircase = Pain. It happened last night in the second half of the show. I think I was more worried about tripping on a costume than I was about getting up the stairs. At least I didn’t fall! 🙂

Happy HNT!

Opening tomorrow… Wednesday, Jun 25 2008 

Twelfth Night is opening tomorrow night. I’m not so much nervous as I am weary. There has been road block after road block and even after we open there are still road blocks to face. It has been frustrating and fulfilling at the same time.

I wasn’t going to audition for this show. I didn’t want to book my summer up and over work myself. My eyes were set on September and the San Francisco Fringe… but then a friend talked to me and I decided to audition. I was only going for the lead roles, one of two roles that embody powerful women (I like playing those types…). At the audition I was asked if I would be willing to take any role. I tried to remember the movie and the characters I saw in the movie and I said “sure.” I read a few times for Viola and Olivia (the 2 female roles I was wanting) and I read for Feste the Fool. Well… you all should know how it ended up. It’s strange how you think you want something and then you get something different and it’s a better fit. The 2 women playing Viola and Olivia are so strong and phenomenal actresses that I am truly blessed to be able to play with them on stage.

Rehearsals started and I started working on my character. This character is different than any of the other characters I have played. The director and I had to decide if I was going to play a man or a woman. The role is supposed to be male and after the first read through I felt that Feste needed to be a man. So my transformation began. I went from a preening female to a rag-tag male and it was a blast! I remember reading my lines a few times and wondering what the hell I was saying. I had no clue. I worked on it and still had troubles memorizing. I felt that my character only talked nonsense… and then I realized it wasn’t nonsense it was wit… my character was wittier than me and I needed to step it up.

Trouble with the stage really made it hard to completely submerge myself into the role. I was still feeling like I was on the outside. Last Saturday we performed for the Rotary’s re-opening of the ampitheatre (the only home of WSF) and I really understood how much power my character had. I had a blast. Being the first character on stage and having to overcome the audiences wondering… is that a female, or a male… it was a challenge… but I never back down from a challenge. 

Last night we got to tech the show. A full dress rehearsal and run through. Sure it was choppy and clunky at parts, but we know we need to fix those areas now. I got into my little costume, I’m very proud of my jerkin, and I started getting in the mood to play. My character is intoxicated in the show and there is a lot of physical work necessary. The bruises I have all over my body make me look like a battered woman! Last night I earned a few more too! 🙂 Yes, I am proud of the stage wounds I get. I earn them. The breast binding is my least favorite part of the process, but it gets me into character. I don’t feel so feminine when I look like I have defined pecs. Last night I was having fun.

Tonight is final dress rehearsal. Tonight is the last night we can hiccup without people realizing we totally messed up. Tonight is the night we put the youngster to sleep and we allow the older, wiser show to emerge and it’s SHOW TIME.

I can’t wait for opening night. I hope to see you all there! 

The Song of the Moment… Tuesday, Jun 24 2008 

Tall Tales Taste Like Sour Grapes

Too much patience,
No resistance,
Within shouting distance,
You can hear a blind man’s bluff,
Dragging names through the mud and still bitting his tongue,
The devil’s in the air and I’m spitting out prayers,
While the ravenous all eat their fill,

Tell me, tell me a story,
Tell me not to worry, or pick up the phone,
So turning, turning a deaf ear,
So that I don’t hear them throwing stone,

Too much hogwart,
Not enough hearsay,
Always made the front page,
You could use a fine tooth comb to get a word from the wise,
Would be a welcome surprise,
Keep an ear to the ground so to drown out the sound of the failures that make me whole,

Tell me, tell me a story,
Tell me not to worry, or pick up the phone,
So turning, turning a deaf ear,
So that I don’t hear them throwing stone,

These walls don’t talk,
Even when somebody knocks,
These walls don’t stand,
For anyone else but themselves,
These walls don’t fall,
Even when gravity’s failing us all,

Tell me, tell me a story,
Tell me not to worry, or pick up the phone,
So turning, turning a deaf ear,
So that I don’t hear them throwing stone

Fair To Midland

So… yeah… I’m a Promo Crazy Person… Monday, Jun 23 2008 

In Fresno right now there’s a tempest of activities going on!

I am involved in the WSF and if you go look here you will see the process of the set being built and all the fun things we have had to deal with along the way.

My friends are doing a show!

 Yeah, go see them! I’m planning on being there! 🙂

Oh yeah, AND if you don’t have enough to get excited about… remember my friends doing the Haunted House?? They are getting started with orientations and casting, so go get the info and show up and get involved!

Um… I think I’m all worn out now and it’s only the beginning of Hell week….

Wish me luck and I’ll see you out and about this weekend for the fun!

Da Count – Da Mommy Friday, Jun 20 2008 

So, yes… Mommy has landed and I am super excited about her time here! Last night after rehearsal I met up with she and my brother and we had a drink at the Grill. It was as if time hadn’t passed. We picked right back up where we left off. I think that’s attributed to the friendship my mommy and I have and also to the fact that she and I talk onthe phone almost every day! I couldn’t be as balanced as I am right now without those daily reminders that I still have a family that loves me and is there for me regardless of what imperfections I have. 🙂

Tonight we’re going to see the Sex in the City movie and I CAN’T WAIT!!!!! Woot! 🙂 Then it’s off to the Public House to meet up with friends and maybe Halo will come out too. 🙂  I really can’t wait for today’s work day to be done!

Mommy is a little version of me, or I am a big version of her. She is a spitfire that’s a hoot to hang around with. I remember growing up having all the blankets and pillows piled in the living room playing FORT. The endless popcorn fights. If you stood anywhere near the pool it was guaranteed that she’d push you in, clothes and all. When it rained we got out grubbies on and went puddle splashing. She was the transportation for the mud football tournaments. There was milk and cookies after school and a bedtime story at night. Mommy was it! 🙂 I am truly blessed to have a loving, caring, absolutely eff-ing fabilous mother!  

Love you Mommy!

HMT – The Meme Thursday, Jun 19 2008 

I got this from Joy and I thought since I have no picture today this will be my HNT.

Can you fill this out without lying?
I will try to.

What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
Iced tea from Burger King

Have you ever kissed anyone named Matthew?
Yes, although he went by Matt.

Where was your default picture taken?
It’s a drawing I picked up on line for “The Fool”

Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20?
Eeeesh… I don’t remember.

Can you play guitar hero?
I’ve played it a few times, I get boo’d off the stage 😦 and it hurts my wrist…. not a fan…

Last time you walked further than a block?
last night walking all around Full Circle Brewery, does that count??

Name someone that made you laugh today?

When was the last time you saw number 3 on your top friends?
#3… hmmm…. MySpace my #3 is the Exit Theater, I saw it last in September

How late did you stay up last night and why?
10:30 ish I was tired and needed sleep.

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
I wouldn’t right now. Maybe in the future, but right now I have too many good things going on to leave them behind.

Ever been kissed under fireworks?
Yes, I have, but it was a long time ago.

Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Um, maybe Marcel?

Do you believe ex’s can be friends?
I think they can. I’m still friends with an ex.

Do you prefer to call or text?
Text for sure!

How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper?
I enjoy a tasty beverage every once in a while… I try not to do sodas though…

When was the last time you cried really hard?
Hmmm… really hard?? about a year and a half ago…

Where are you at right now?

Thinking about lines


What bed did you sleep in last night?

What was the last thing someone bought for you?
A drink… a drink too many…

Does that count?
Count??? Um… I don’t know….

When is your birthday?
January 20

Who took your profile picture?
It’s a drawing

Who was the last person you took a picture of?
I took a picture of people in my cast standing by our set

Was yesterday better than today?
No, mom is coming in town today, it’s the best day ever!

Can you live a day without TV?
Ha! I live most days without tv

Are you mad about anything?

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Yes… regardless of the outcome.

The last time you spent the night at someone’s house?
last night

When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
Hmmm…. a few days ago.

Are you a bad influence?
I can be 🙂

night out or night in?
I’m beginning to prefer nights in.

Are you more of an individual or an outgoing person?
can’t an individual be outgoing? Ugh. I’m outgoing.

What items could you not go without during the day?
Blackberry. Water.

Would you share a drink with a stranger?
Um… not so much…

Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
Wow… hmmm… maybe my roommate… I hate hospitals.

Last hug?
this morning saying good bye

Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
I don’t think it’s wrong… it’s not my thing but it might be someone else’s

Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
Hahahahahaha… alcohol

Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
No. What a silly waste of shoes. <~~~ I agree with Joy here… perfectly good pair of shoes just thrown away… poor shoes… it hurts their feelings you know!

What does the last text message in your inbox say?
“Lol my bad.”

How do you feel about your life right now?
I am excited about the possibilities and I adore the people that I am close to.

Explain why you last threw up?
I ate a bad piece of meat and had food poisoning for a day.

How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
LOL…. a few….

Do you hate anyone?
I probably do… but I think of anyone right now…

Do you talk dirty to people?
Hahahahaha… usually…

If we were to look in your phone inbox, what would we find?
just phone numbers of people that called…

Will you have a valentine this year?
V Day is long gone this year and I didn’t have a valentine. I hope to have one next year. 🙂

Anyone upset you lately?
Yes. But I’m over it, thankfully!

Last person you talked to on the phone?

Can you easily tell if someone is fake?
Most of the time

How’s your heart?
At peace with what is being built.

Say you were given a drug test right now, Would you pass?

Have you ever fallen into a rose bush?
Yes! Ouch!

What did you do right before you started filling this out?
Um… looked over my lines, answered a phone call, stuff like that…

Have you had any Beers today?
Hahahahaha… no

How many?

What are you doing tonight?
Rehearsal then it’s MOMMY TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It always happens… Tuesday, Jun 17 2008 

…when I am at the peak of my busiest time or really needing to get a lot of work done, that my body decides to tell me I am human and I need to slow down. Yes, M I know you have been tell me this for a looooooong time… and I think I’m scaled down a bit but there is ALWAYS room for improvement.

Friday night I worked at the Grill and was trying to have a shiny happy personality… I’ve realized I’ve become jaded and indifferent towards the waitressing part of my job and I find the individuals that are high maintenance really make me not care at all… I was doing a good job, I think. It started with a really nice couple that had just gone on a much needed shopping spree and were lovin the food and the company… it was really cute! 🙂 Starting a shift off with great customers is always a good sign. As the night progresses we were not too super busy, just kinda hanging out and working at an easy pace, and I started feeling bad. Horribly bad. I hung in there until the end of my shift and went straight home. This is not my usual M.O., usually I stay after, socialize, have a drink and hang for a bit… but I wasn’t in the mood nor was I feeling up for it. Plus I knew I had an early morning set building call at the Park. well… that early morning call never happened as I was up all night in the bathroom not able to keep my head out of it. It was the worst experience I think I have ever had and I am still recovering from it! I think I slept 24 hours from Saturday morning until Sunday morning… well maybe not 24 hours but there’s little about Saturday I remember. Sunday was spent getting as much rest done so I could be back to normal Monday, I did laundry and semi cleaning my room, finished the Pink Bible and to top it off I was an emotional wreck.

When I get sick I am a baby, I just want to be taken care of, I want to have the piece of mind where if I pass out and am dead to the world, there will be someone there to make sure I don’t prematurely die. And with the haze of the mass amounts of sleep and the food deprivation from Saturday still clouding my head, I was having a problem seeing the trees through the forest.  Yeah, kinda like the picture. I was trying to make sense out of issues that I had no reason to be thinking about, and that always leads to trouble. I should know better, but when I get my mind set (even if it is cloudier than San Francisco in the morning) there’s nothing that’s going to change my mind until I can see the light.

I love my mother. She’s coming into town this Thursday! I can’t wait! I haven’t seen her since Christmas and I miss her! She is one in my inner circle, one that knows how to help me through the cloudy times and rejoices with me when I can see the light. I am blessed in that I have a parent who accepts me for me and who doesn’t judge me and my behavior and who loves me unconditionally. Mom is the best and I can’t wait to have her here this week! She’ll be here for the opening of my show! And we will be able to go and get a ridiculously calorie laden chocolate something or other and pig out while girlie talking. Just like we always do. It was a conversation with my mother last night that made the light bulb ding and I was able to see how ridiculous and irrational I was being. I hate it when it’s my fault because I hate being a silly stupid girl… but hey, it happens and as long as I can see it and come around and apologize where necessary… oh, and LEARN from it…. it’s a good thing. 🙂

Rehearsals are crazy… we are in count down mode with only 5 rehearsals left to get this show up and going. I’m not in panic mode, I’m in a nose-to-the-grind-stone mode and it’s uber necessary. I want this show to be fun and exciting and goofy and a good time. I got together with Jay last night to talk about the extras we’re putting on July 4th’s performance, and it was good to get an idea and know where to run with it. I spent some much needed hang out time with friends catching up and laughing and just relaxing… it was so nice and I am so blessed to have them in my life. I went home, attempted some mac n’cheese, watched a fascinating documentary on Elenor Roosevelt on PBS and crashed out.

So here we are… all caught up and knowing exactly what the immediate path under my feet looks like and thankful for the ups and downs and the patience. I’m sure I’ll have lots o’ fun stories about mom’s trip here… and maybe some pics too. 🙂

Cheers and Happy Tuesday!  

EDIT: Check out Fresnocentric for the updates on the set building that happened during my stint on the couch. And with September fast approaching, Tale End is gearing up to hit the promo circut… check out the MySpace!

Da Count – Communication Friday, Jun 13 2008 

I love communication. Communication is such a key aspect in my life, in my relationships, at my job, etc. I think it’s important to establish an open line with those you care the most about, whether it be through a look, a smile or a special way of talking.

This week I have felt absolutely aggravated in that I haven’t felt that I’ve effectively communicated what I am feeling and what is bothering me. There is so much that I am dealing with and when I have tried to talk about it, I’m told to look at the bigger picture, to put myself in the other person’s shoes, to buck up and stop stressin over the little shit… and sure, that’s a well and valid… but what I need the most when I’m in this kind of place is a hug and cuddle time and someone to just tell me it’s going to be ok. Or don’t say anything at all…. just be there and hug me until I can overcome the demons and put them away.

I’m not so good and just brushing it off and letting go. I hate to see my friends hurt. I want to help solve problems. And yes, I know I need to help myself and solve my problems… but where is the line between a healthy relationship with yourself and being self-centered… I don’t get it…

Assumptions are a bitch and I’ve worked really hard to not jump to conclusions. I’m notorious for starting at point A but already planning point H. Sometimes it’s helpful but mostly it’s a harmful aspect to my daily routine and I’ve tried to lessen it in my life. I think I’m doing better (that’s what my mom said… no Chris… seriously!).

I know this is a round about Da Count, but I am thankful for those friends in my life that I can really talk to. Katie, Cadie, Halo, my mom, Michelle, Rob, Jay… there’s more but it’s the fact that I have them in my life and they are willing to actively listen to me and my struggles and give me wonderful amazing feedback… I am thankful for them and their willingness to put up with my psychoses. Thank you.

Oh… and one of my major stresses and major joys…. check out my latest posts at Fresnocentric.

EDIT: yeah… ok something that we’ve (the actors out at the park) been mulling over… there’s a peacock… now the female is a peahen? So the babies would be peachicks? And why is it called a peacock, why not a pearooster…

Fun deliously wonderings from sleep deprived actors… 

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